Casting My Worries Unto Him

I was told a few hours ago that I will be the duty officer for tomorrow's parade, and as a squad leader, I'll have to address the Boys on their discipline. Me?? Talking about discipline!! That's the joke of the day!! But I then realised that that IS my job as not only an officer but a mentor to them, to help them realise that discipline ain't about the punishments but more to do about the consequences.

I'm also meeting the CVSS kids tomorrow afternoon at my place... I do hope that they would have warmed up more to me and open up more to share their ideas for their project.

So dear Lord, help me to not speak from myself, but with the Holy Spirit taking over me, I shall speak words of wisdom into them!

To be honest, I've been a very worried person lately...

1. My future

STILL no progress on my application for the internship... So now, I'm doing up my resume so that I can email it to them and just wait patiently for a positive reply... And the 'A' level results are STILL not out so i have to wait and wait for it, then I can proceed with my application for NTU CI.

It's so pek cek ya know... can't do anything about it but just to pray...

2. My cell group

Not so much of a worry but more of a concern... Qing Xiang hasn't been coming for 2 weeks due to exams, and Guang Zhi has been ignoring my calls... When such things happen, I always wonder was there anything I could have done to prevent this from happening? Are the mistakes that I've made in my life or even my sins being manifested in the form of problems preventing them from fully encountering God?

3. My ministry to God

Recently, I've been feeling like I don't really make a good people person... I can't really connect well with the people I serve...

4. My desperately sick (and wayward and rebellious) heart

And at the end of the day, only the Lord knows how I weak I am and how much I need Him.

For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? "And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life?"And why are you worried about clothing? Observe how the lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin, yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these. "But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you? You of little faith!''Do not worry then, saying, 'What will we eat?' or 'What will we drink?' or 'What will we wear for clothing?' "For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things." But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. "So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

- Matthew 6:25-34

I ain't going through a good time, but the Lord knows my needs and when I seek Him with all of my heart, they will be granted to me.

And yes! I shall surrender all my troubles unto Him, so it shall be up to Him to deal with them, and when the Lord is in full control of my life, what is there to worry? He will defintely bless me!!

Lord, help me to live out the truth...