if only i could turn back time...

Yes, how i wish i could have turned back time to about 2 months ago, when everything seem to be alright and nothing's wrong... then i had to spoil it all with something stupid i have done...
the past 2 months have been a great test of my walk with God... and it believe it's yet to be over... i have struggled with many things... is it wrong to express my feelings? is it wrong to feel certain emotions? am i secure in God's love? and many more... well, i dont think i've got the textbook or ten-year serie answers to the above questions, but i've got some answers on my own after spending some time with God... i'll be pouring my heart out in this blog and this blog ain't meant to be something that can touch your life or sth, it's just a channel to air my thoughts, and if you feel it ain't inspiring, too bad... but if you feel inspired, thank God, bless you...